Welcome Carol Preflatish to Haven’s Realm!

I have the pleasure of hosting Carol Preflatish to my Haven’s Realm blogsite today. The following is an interview I conducted with her.

1 – What made you become a writer?
I have been interested in writing since high school and college. After I got married and had a child, I sort of forgot about it. Then, in the late 1990′s, the bug hit again. My New Year’s resolution for 2000 was to write a novel and I did.

2 – What makes your stories unique?
So far, both of my books have a hero that is a man in authority. The first one was a CIA officer and the second one was a sheriff.

3 – What part of writing do you find the most challenging?
The most challenging for me is finding enough time to write.  I work full time and have chores to do when I get home. Saturday’s are dedicated to my mom, so Sunday is my only day and that’s also laundry day. Somehow, I manage though.

4 – Have you ever wished one or more of your characters were real?
My characters feel real to me.  I spend so much time creating them throughout the writing process that when I finish the book, it’s like I lost a friend I won’t see again.

5 – What do you consider ideal writing conditions?
I’d love to have my own private office at home to write. But, we really don’t have the room for that, so I prefer being home alone with no distractions. There has to be noise in the house, either music, radio, or the television. Neither distract me, but when it’s too quiet it’s impossible for me to be creative.

6 – What are you working on now?
I’m trying to work on two books right now. One is a sweet romance and the other is a police procedural mystery.

7 – Can you give us an excerpt?
Both of them are in such a rough draft stage that an excerpt would be terrible.

8 – Where can we buy your books? 
The best place to find both of my books, “Love, Lies & Deceit” and “Saved by the Sheriff” is my amazon author page at https://www.amazon.com/author/carolpre or on my web page at http://CarolPre.webs.com

Thank you, Carol.

Tamara Monteau
Haven’s Realm

Twilight Destiny, Haven’s Realm 1 – New excerpt

Sitting here tonight, I began thinking about my most beloved characters. I thought I’d share the opening of Twilight Destiny. I’ve never shared this, though it’s probably on Amazon’s “See inside”. Here is how Joshua first met Catherine “Katie” Mills…

A gentle breeze stirred among the branches of the mighty evergreens–pines, spruces, and firs that whispered to each other over long-forgotten memories. High above the canopy, a waning moon peeked from behind the scattered clouds, its light casting fleeting silver beams among the shadows to illuminate the mist like specters flitting among the undergrowth. Somewhere in the quiet gloom, a lone owl took flight. Its massive wings softly beat the air as it issued a mournful “who-o-o” that floated on the breeze. Tiny frogs and insects called to each other, adding their songs to the musical harmony of the night.

A solitary figure moved among the shadows in ethereal silence, making note of every sound and smell, every nuance of the dense forest he’d come to call home. He passed unnoticed by the tiny creatures that shared this realm with him, and remembered a time long ago when they fled from him in fear before he knew they were there.

Joshua loved the night. He was deeply attuned to every sound, smell and sight that intertwined to write its own special music–music most creatures dismissed, but he found wonderfully soothing. The rainforests of the Pacific Northwest were not dissimilar to the woods of his native Scotland. Moss hung just as thick and wet from the trees. Mists rolled in just as gently. He sometimes missed the smell of heather on a fine summer’s eve, but only occasionally now, for those days were long behind him.

This quiet night was like any other, uneventful and serene, until he heard the sound of raucous laughter from a clearing ahead of him. His sharply tuned senses caught the scents of alcohol, sweat, and burning wood in the air. With the most careful stealth, he moved closer and found the camp with its four drunken occupants. He listened for a few minutes to their bawdy comments and jokes with disgust before moving on.

He had not gotten far from the campsite when he caught a new, elusive scent on the breeze, mildly sweet, like fresh peaches and strawberries covered in cream. He paused to take the scent into himself, savored it, then listened silently until he heard the soft shuffle of feet. With swiftness only he could manage in complete silence, he moved to the source of the sound. What he found brought an unexpected pang to his long-quiet heart.

A little girl, perhaps eight years of age, tripped happily along the poorly used path humming a simple tune. Her dark, unevenly cut hair hung to her collar and floated softly as she moved. A pair of expressive blue-gray eyes sparkled in her delicate, china-doll face. She wore a pair of cotton pants with a flowered print and a hole over one knee, and an undersized sweater. An ill-fitting pair of battered canvas shoes slipped occasionally from her heels.

He opened his mind to her thoughts and instantly regretted the act, for her sweet innocence invaded his mind with unexpected strength. He learned she was on her way home from a day of play with a friend not far down the path while revisiting one of her favorite fantasies, one in which she was a princess, forced to hide in poor exile because her castle was under siege. He smiled at her imagination.

Facts and images flowed over him with the softness of a spring rain, sketching the details of her life while holding him in her tender thrall. She lived in a dirt-floor dwelling barely adequate to shelter herself and her parents. Her father was a lumberjack on a part-time crew. She painted his image in laughter and gentleness, disguising the worry in his eyes, the hard lines on his face. Her mother appeared to have once been a graceful beauty, and in the child’s eyes she was the most wonderful woman in the world, but a hard life had put premature care lines on her young face.

The girl turned and headed into the woods, breaking his concentration. Her home was not far from where he now stood, a few short minutes up the path, but he realized with horror she intended to take a shortcut that led straight to the camp of drunken hunters. The thought of what those men might do to such a tender morsel sent an irrational surge of panic through him, overwhelming him with an unsettling and urgent need to protect her.

He knew his appearance would frighten the child, but he had to find a way to avert this tragedy in the making. With his mental prowess, he could sway her from her intended path, but doing so might cause her permanent harm. Tender minds were easily damaged, and his thoughts were far too powerful to force into such a small head. Reluctantly, he opened his mind to her again. The purity of her spirit poured through him, giving him feelings of longing he thought were lost to him forever. He fought against his feelings and focused on her fantasies until he found a way in. Then, with grim determination, he placed himself deliberately in her path.

The girl stopped short with a gasp when she saw him appear before her, but before she could gather herself to scream, he said gently, “Do not be afraid.” He knelt down, bowed his head deeply, and said, “I beg your pardon for this intrusion, my lady. Please have no fear. I mean you no harm.”

“Wh-h-o are you?” she asked in a tiny, frightened voice. “I’m not supposed to talk to strangers.”

He lifted his head, but carefully kept his face shadowed. “I am but a poor knight, my lady, the guardian of this forest. The wood sprites warn of a princess in danger. Tell me, can you be the one of whom they speak?”

“I’m not a princess,” she told him uncertainly, but he sensed her guard dropping.

“Indeed? May I be favored with the knowledge of your name?”

She hesitated a moment, then whispered, “It’s…Katie.”

“Katie?” he repeated in a puzzled tone. “Interesting name. Is it short for something? Let me guess. Katrina?” She shook her head. “No? Caitlin?” Again she shook her head, this time with a giggle. “Catalina, then?”

“No.” She laughed, her fear all but gone. “Catherine.”

He rose to his full height and nodded. “Ah. Catherine. ‘Tis a beautiful name. It suits you well, my lady.” He took a step toward her, leaned forward, and shifted his head from side to side in a secretive gesture. “There are monsters about this eve, Lady Catherine. I’ve been sent to guide you safely home.”

Her expression instantly sobered. “There’s no such thing as monsters. Daddy told me so.”

“Aye, he is correct to a point. But, you see, these monsters are not the kind that hide under wee girls’ beds at night. This kind lurks in shadowy woods to attack innocent wanderers such as yourself. The sprites told me they lie in wait beyond yonder trees. I’ve seen them myself, and they are most unsavory.” He straightened again and held his hand to her. “I beg you do me the honor of conducting you safely to your home, Princess Catherine. I swear by the unicorn’s heart that no harm will come to you if you place your trust in me.”

He watched the play of emotions on her face with amusement. The discomfort in her heart kept company with her strong-willed imagination. It took only the gentlest mental nudge to convince her this was little more than an extension of her fantasies. She reached up slowly to place her small, warm hand in his much larger one. Then, with a regal air that appeared well practiced, she raised her chin and said, “Very well, Sir Knight. You may escort me if you wish.”

“Thank you, my lady.” He closed his hand over hers and paused for a moment to rub the pad of his thumb across her delicate knuckles. “Now, follow me, and be extra quiet. We don’t want to attract attention.” He turned and led her through the woods, keeping enough distance between them and the men so her innocent ears would not hear their revelry. When they reached the edge of her property, he knelt to look in her eyes. “Your home lies just beyond, my lady. I thank you again for allowing me to see to your safety.”

She performed a proper curtsy. “I thank you for your assistance, Sir Knight.” Then, in a sudden gesture as magnanimous as it was unexpected, she flung her arms around his neck. He reluctantly returned the simple show of affection and felt something deep inside him shatter. She whispered a hasty goodbye and ran the rest of the way to her house.

He stood in the shadows and watched as she entered her home. Her mother welcomed the child into her arms and closed the door behind them. He heard her speak excitedly about a forest guardian, and felt relieved to sense the mother’s amused dismissal of her daughter’s flight of fancy. He turned to continue his nightly patrol of the forest, but now he took little notice of the wonders around him. His thoughts continued to gravitate around the innocent angel that had moved him so strangely.

He grimly resolved to never again cross paths with fair Catherine. He would too easily grow attached to the young mortal, and that was one thing he could not allow himself to do. Not again. Not this time. He’d lived too many years and made too many mistakes to allow himself commit yet another blunder. Trifling with mortals was a dangerous, sometimes deadly, game, and a vampire had to be careful, especially in these modern times. He reminded himself how much he enjoyed his solitary existence while he made his way back to his home on the other side of the woods.

Welcome Davee Jones to Haven’s Realm!

I have the pleasure today of hosting Davee Jones, one of our Secret Cravings Publishing authors. So welcome, Davee. I have a few questions to help my readers get to know you.

HR - First, tell us a little about yourself.
Davee – First, I must say thank you very much for having me here with you today. The support we give each other is necessary to succeed. I will be 42 years young in 2012. I decided I could live the last half of my life achieving goals I honestly never dreamed possible. I have my children who look up to me, and it’s important to me that I show them they must continue evolving. I stay active, and began participating in triathlons last year with my husband, now, I’m hooked. I manage my daughter’s little league softball team. I love to cook and collect cookbooks. I recently began learning about wines and enjoy a good red blend on occasion and I absolutely love sharing martinis with family and friends when we get together. I have a deep Christian faith, and it gets me through the rough times. I really don’t fit into any one box.

HRMy word, you’re busy! We share a lot in common, including Faith and the fact that I also decided to pursue writing later in life. So, what is your favorite part about writing? Your least favorite?
Davee - I’ve always written in one form or another, my favorite part about writing is getting my feelings out, my medium is on paper. I wrote poetry in college, one poem made it into our college art forum publication. I kept a journal, especially during the most difficult times in my life. I didn’t really believe I could write a book, because it seemed so daunting. One day, probably after a workout when my endorphins were spinning, I decided to begin writing the first chapter of an honest to goodness book. I haven’t stopped writing since and that was about two years ago. Ironically, my first book published, On Ellicott Street, is not the first book I wrote. The first book I wrote, Finless, started it all and released April 3, 2012.

My least favorite part about writing is not having enough time to write as much as I would like. Also, marketing books is difficult to me, it seems just when I think I have an original concept or storyline, I find another writer has something similar.

HR – Who is your favorite character? Why?
Davee - My favorite character is Lily because even through her extreme meltdown, she found her way back to the blossoming essence of her existence. She ceased compromising just for the sake of acceptance.

HR – How does your spouse/family feel about your writing?
Davee - My family knows my stories contain explicit content. They support me anyway- they just might not read my books. Or, just skim over the parts that make them squeamish. My husband, Alan, respects my necessary outlet for creativity and encourages me.

HR – Tell us about your latest work.
Davee - My latest work, Finless, is a gritty love story that combines intense feelings of pain and sadness with the plot. Sarah, Nathaniel, and Lily resist unconditional love as they feed primal desires.  Not believing the possibility of having it all, they struggle to believe that they, the “least of these”, rightfully deserve a lifetime of love and happiness– Especially with how graphically and unconventionally they choose to express themselves.

Each of the characters comes to realize how tortured their lives have become.  Violent images, dreams, and actions occur as they spiral downward into their dark lives. As they each reach a personal impasse, they must decide how they will make their lives better.  In the process, they must also mend broken intimate relationships with the ones they love.

This erotic, edgy tale describes and embraces elements of s/M lifestyle.  Their personal proclivities are embraced, not condemned.

HR - Can you share an excerpt?

Davee - excerpt

Nathaniel took the riding crop from the hanging rack on the wall. He slid the leather against her skin and would occasionally lightly smack the stiff shaft of the crop against her bare flesh. She started to melt into the cuffs as the adrenaline high pulsed in her veins. With each stroke of the crop, he used more force until the leather began to leave welts on her exposed skin. These would be lightly bruised areas tomorrow which Lily would wear like a trophy for a few days until they healed.

Nathaniel put the crop back in its place and took control of the bullwhip. He cracked the whip away from her, generating a loud echo in the basement. She shuddered slightly in delighted anticipation, knowing the whip would be cracking against her bare back and buttocks. Nathaniel walked up to Lily and slid the “popper”—the tip of the whip—evenly against her shoulder blades. “You want this, don’t you, Lily?”

“Yes, Master”, was her soft, yet dogged reply.

Nathaniel walked away from Lily just far enough for the “fall” of the whip to land against her. Instant angry streaks appeared across her backside as she stood firmly, unmoving, as he wielded the whip’s cracking lash expertly across Lily’s body. Lily began to float in her mind to this place of warmth and contentment-subspace. She never felt such peace of mind as when Nathaniel took control and gave her the physical release no one else ever had.

When he satiated the need to execute his power physically onto Lily, he finished by unlocking her from the rack and bending her over the dungeon stocks. He bound her hands with straps against her frame, extending her arms with a slight bend in her elbows. Her ass protruded seductively in the air, with enough upward tilt to allow for easy rear access. Without hesitation, he took her from behind, driving his pulsing cock into her waiting center. Over and over he continued his welcomed assault into her tight feminine cave. Maintaining as she reached her own G spot climax, they came together with loud animal grunts, as he gripped her breathlessly.

His release mingled with her sweat and dripped down to the dungeon floor as he turned and walked away up the stairs to clean himself privately in the upstairs bathroom. Lily remained panting, clinching her fists tightly in recovery from their intense physical interchange.

Nathaniel came back downstairs, bringing a warm wet cloth for Lily. Wordlessly, he unfastened Lily from her restraints. “mmm, once again, you’ve proven a satisfactory servant and now I must take my leave.” He used his cell phone to call a cab while she leisurely showered.

Nathaniel left town without a goodbye. Lily did not even know he was gone. The bruises he inflicted on this meeting were not even yet starting to fade. Lily was still riding the adrenaline high of his painful hands.

HR – Wow. Intense to say the least! If you couldn’t write, Davee, what would you do?

Davee - It would sadden me immensely if I could not write. It is such an outlet for me. The characters I create hold traits of people close to me-both the positive and negative. However, I do not reveal enough or make it so personal that it would embarrass either me or my family and friends. There are times the story line involves deeply held feelings. I hope to make my characters genuine and believable and the best way is to re-create the roller coaster of emotional experiences in life.

I have lists everywhere, and keep pencils sharpened to add to and take away from those lists. I also tell myself I must get _______ done before I can write. Writing is my reward for getting housekeeping and other tasks finished. I also work full time away from the writing scene, so, my time for writing is sometimes quite limited. I also explained to my family that in order for me to be successful, I would need to be unavailable at times to take care of writing business, networking, blogging, etc. They understand and are so far very supportive. I multi-task extremely well, that helps tremendously.

HR – Thank you, Davee, for visiting Haven’s Realm today. And welcome to all of you who took the time today to comment. Below are Davee’s links.

http://www.amazon.com/Davee-Jones/e/B0076AYW10/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/on-ellicott-street-davee-jones/1108252823

http://finless.blogspot.com/

http://store.secretcravingspublishing.com/

Tamara Monteau
Haven’s Realm

Who is Vincent? part 2

Well, it’s Monday again. Time for another excerpt from my Haven’s Realm series regarding Vincent, the protagonist my next novel. In this scene from Twilight Destiny, Haven’s Realm 1, Vincent finds Joshua atop Mt. Hood, lamenting an action he’d taken that brought uncomfortable consequences. Twilight Destiny is now available from Secret Cravings Publishing. Also, you can purchase your paperback copy here.

Twilight Destiny Cover

Twilight Destiny, Haven's Realm 1

Excerpt:

Joshua stood on the highest peak of Mt. Hood and gazed at the low clouds below his feet. From this great height, the stars were too numerous to distinguish, filling the sky until the dark velvet dome could hold no more. Thoughts of Catherine filled his head and his heart until he felt they would tear him apart. Soon he wept, softly at first, but then with great sobs that shook him to the core of his being. He sat on the icy ridge and let his tears spill forth, hoping to purge himself of his pain.

He sensed the presence long before Vincent appeared on the ridge beside him. “Leave me,” he begged when he found his voice.

“You require counsel,” he answered in a soft and sympathetic tone. “Let me help.”

He glanced at his friend, who was now seated beside him. “I thought you returned to Haven.”

“I did. I returned only to see how you were doing. Not well, I see.”

“In other words, you’re checking up on me.”

He shrugged marginally. “I can’t dismiss my responsibilities. Still, I should think my support would be more welcome to you than Bastian’s interference.”

He tried to call forth his anger, hoping it would give him the strength to argue, but all that erupted from him was yet another round of sobs. “I’ve made a mistake,” he said when he again found his voice.

“Catherine?”

He nodded silently. The two sat on the ridge for some time before he confessed, “I gave her my blood.” He took a deep, unnecessary breath. “Her life was at risk. I sustained her.”

“This distresses you?”

“Yes. I fear there were…complications.”

“You knew there would be.”

“No,” he said sadly. “I only suspected.”

“How far has it gone?”

He looked up at the myriad stars, wishing for the oblivion they enjoyed. “An increase in visual acuity, especially, I suspect, at night. Sharpened hearing. Judging by the way she toyed with her clothing the other night, a heightened sense of touch, perhaps changes in taste and smell as well.”

“That isn’t the worst of it.”

“No. If that were all…” He turned his attention to his hands, studying the smooth, pale skin absently. “A sympathetic bond formed between us years ago, one I alone was sensitive to. That bond has strengthened, and she’s becoming more and more aware of it.”

“I see.” After a long, intense silence, he asked, “Are you in love with her?”

It took several tries for Joshua to release his response. “Aye.”

“Does she return the sentiment?”

“I believe she was moving in that direction.”

“I don’t understand the problem. Take her into your confidence.”

“I’m afraid she might not be as open to certain…possibilities as I had hoped.”

“If she resists, you can always take control of her.”

“No. I value her freedom of thought, her ability to choose. I can’t take that from her. You of all people should understand that.” He rose to his feet, slowly and gracefully unfolding himself until he felt he could reach out to the stars and surrender to their embrace. “Her love for me cannot grow on its own. I’ve influenced things far more than I intended. I’ll never know if she gives her heart to me freely. I must…” he choked on another sob. “I intend to release her right after her senior prom.”

“And then what?” Vincent’s voice had a tight, irritated edge to it.

“I don’t know. Go to ground. Move on. Block myself from her perceptions until she no longer feels my pull.”

“I hear your feelings much more loudly than your words. You would choose suicide rather than see this through.” He snorted in irritation. “Antonia did not teach you very well.”

“Just what is that supposed to mean?” he asked, his anger at long last beginning to boil.

“Joshua, do you understand so little of what you are? The girl’s heart was yours long before you gave her your gift. Otherwise, she would not have willingly grasped the bond you so greatly fear.” More calmly, he advised, “Continue on as you have been. Block your mind from her if you feel you must to prevent yourself from unduly influencing her. Guide her carefully, and she’ll accept your secrets. Unless you intentionally interfere with her will, she will do as her heart directs.”

His words poured over Joshua’s heart like a soothing balm. “If you’re certain…”

“Young Catherine belongs to you, my friend. I look forward to the time when you can introduce her to me as your bride.”

Welcome Marie Rose Dufour to Haven’s Realm!

I am honored to welcome Ms Dufour to my blog today. To help get to know her, I asked the following questions…

1 – What made you become a writer?
I’ve always written as far back as I can remember. The first real story I can remember writing was at thirteen. It was about a girl walking through a mirror into an alternate universe. I’m still thinking that story needs to be written from an adult perspective.

2 – Tell us a little about your work.
I write erotic romance. My stories always have happy endings, alpha heroes, and scorching hot love scenes.

Sounds smoky!

3 – What makes your stories unique?
I like that all of my heroines are flawed in some way. They’re not Victoria Secret models. They’re women who you would meet for coffee or a drink on a girl’s night out.

4 – What are you working on now?
Right now I am working on a paranormal trilogy contracted by Secret Cravings Publishing. It’s tentatively called “The Bound Series”. It’s about three families of witches that have to come together and fight a great evil.

5 – Do you have a new release?
As a matter of fact, my new release is out today. It’s called Saddle Up. It’s in the Hot Flash line at Secret Cravings Publishing. It’s my very own cowboy/cougar book.

Well! Happy Release Day!!!

6 – Can you share an excerpt from your latest book?

Tasha Lane never realized how boring her life had become until one phone call in the middle of the night totally changed it. Can this forty-two year old accountant put aside a nine-year age gap and perpetual “foot in mouth” disorder to find love and happiness with an ex-rodeo star turned rancher?

Three years ago, Devin Grant traded the rodeo circuit for a cattle ranch. If someone told him, he would fall in love with a woman he’d never physically met, he’d think they were kicked too many times in the head by a bull. When her brother is thrown from his horse, it was finally time to meet the sexy woman of his dreams and convince her, he was worth taking a chance on.

Can he convince her before she goes back to her boring life? Will she be able to overcome their age difference and her own insecurities?

7 – What would you do if you couldn’t write?
I would probably go insane. All kidding aside, my “dreaded day job” is a teacher, so I would just continue doing that because I love that also.

8 – Where can we buy your books?
SCP website, Amazon, Bookstrand, All Romance E-Books, Barnes and Noble.

9 – Tell us a little about yourself.
I’m an avid reader of erotic romances who loves sappy movies and happy endings. I live in Rhode Island with two very curious cats, a husband who thinks he’s the basis for all my heroes, in a house the size of a postage stamp.

10 – What part of writing do you find the most challenging?
I can’t write until the story is fully developed in my head. So at times, it takes me a long time to put things down on paper. And I do mean down on paper, I write on yellow legal paper and then type it out, so again it takes me a lot of time.

That’s very interesting! My process is quite similar. When I get stuck on a point, I end up putting the whole project aside until it feels right again in my head. I could never write it out, though. I think a lot faster than my fingers can write.

11 – Who is your favorite character? Why?
Right now, my favorite character is Tasha Lane who is my lead in Saddle Up. She is most like me out of all my female characters.

12 – Have you ever wished one or more of your characters were real?
I wish all of my male characters were real. Yummy!!

Now I don’t feel alone.

13 – What do you do when you’re not writing?
I watch a lot of movies and read a lot of books.

14 – What do you consider ideal writing conditions?
Any free time I get, I consider ideal writing conditions. I just wish I had more of it.

15 – How does your spouse/family feel about your writing?
My spouse is my biggest cheerleader. He is very proud of what I have done. That being said, he doesn’t want anyone to tell him if they’ve actually have read the book. The graphic love scenes embarrass him. My family is another story which is why I write under a pen name.

Thank you, Marie. Happy Friday 13th!

Who is Vincent? Part 1

The fifth installment of the Haven’s Realm series will be focusing on Vincent, my broody and enigmatic vampire. To that end, and to build up to his story, I decided to post a series of excerpts from previous works. Here is the first time we see Vincent, early in Twilight Destiny, Haven’s Realm 1. You can purchase your e-copy from Secret Cravings Publishing. Order your printed copy here.

Twilight Destiny Cover


Excerpt 1:

Joshua belted his black slacks and picked up a comb. A week had passed since his visit with Natalie, a week filled with anxious anticipation, but Catherine had yet to call. He could no longer stand the suspense. After smoothing his hair into soft waves, he pulled the top back and fastened it with a black band. Alex watched him take extra care with his appearance, a look of satisfaction on his face. “Don’t look so smug,” he groused. “You knew this would come the moment you insisted I give the girl a chance.” He closed the top of his white linen shirt, fastened a black lariat in place, and toyed nervously with the silver clasp. “Do I look presentable?”

Alex held up a finger in response, turned and left the room, to return moments later with a bottle of cologne. “Is that really necessary?” he moaned while Alex splashed the liquid on his face. “All right, that’s enough.” He picked up his jacket and started to put it on, but Alex stopped him. “You don’t think so? Well, all right.” He tossed the jacket onto the bed he never used. Alex adjusted the lariat clasp, stood back and nodded his approval. With a heavy sigh, Joshua pocketed his keys and headed for the garage.

During the half-hour drive to her home, he contemplated the prospect of seeing her again. He almost turned the car around more than once, feeling strongly he was making a mistake. “Why am I doing this?” he asked himself out loud. “I’m not that lonely.” He knew full well that wasn’t the truth. In fact, he realized how lonely his existence had become the moment he’d laid eyes on her.

An unexpected pang of anxiety struck him in the chest with all the force and pain of a wooden stake when he turned up the dirt road to her home. He slammed on the brake, skidded to a stop on the soft shoulder and killed the engine. He didn’t have to look in the mirror to know his eyes were glowing red–the urgent need to feed and the sudden sharpness of his fangs told him that much, as did the feral growl that escaped through his clenched teeth.

He jumped from the car, moved to sit on its hood, and slumped over until his head was level with his knees. Still, the pain in his heart persisted, giving him the unreasonable urge to draw in breath he didn’t need. Even the sighs that escaped him on occasion were mere affectations–some of his mortal habits had refused to die.

“I’ve never seen you this out of control, brother.” He was on his feet in an instant at the sound of the familiar voice. Vincent stepped from the shadows and leaned casually against a nearby tree. “It must be a woman,” he observed evenly. “Some tender mortal has drawn your attention again.”

“What are you doing here?” To his own ears, his voice sounded rough and menacing.

“I was in the neighborhood,” he replied smoothly, moving to stand beside him and place a familiar hand on his arm. “I sensed your presence and thought I’d pay you a visit. I had no idea you’d be so…entertaining.”

“I don’t need this right now.” He turned away sharply and glared into the woods.

“Sorry,” Vincent offered half-heartedly. “I know what you’re going through. I’ve been there too many times myself.”

“I know you have,” he said, not without sympathy. He felt himself calming and affected a long sigh in relief.

“I know you’re unwilling to repeat past mistakes. Still, you’ve been alone too long. You really should consider returning to Haven. We’ve missed you.”

He snorted his disgust. “Antonia no doubt has plenty of other toys to play with.”

“Our Mother in Darkness has her appetites, but once she takes a creature to heart, he stays there.”

“Well, I’m not interested in her kind of affection.”

“No, you were always the serious, devoted type,” he reflected, offering his own sigh. “Do you intend to pursue this new mortal?”

“Are you asking as my brother and oldest friend, or as a member of the Council of Elders?”

Caution and sorrow dimmed his sapphire eyes. “That all depends upon who you need me to be.”

He closed his eyes, drew in a deep breath, and pushed it out along with more of his anxiety. He knew too well Vincent’s responsibilities. It would never do to lose control in front of a Council representative, friend or no. “What I do here does not concern the Council. I won’t endanger the Community. I’ll take the girl before I let that happen.” He put his hands on the roof of the car and lowered his head. “I remember too well what happened last time.”

Vincent put a supportive hand on his shoulder. The familiar gesture evaporated what was left of his inner turmoil. “Don’t worry, Josh. I won’t tell the others about the girl. No Enforcers will be hounding your movements. Just promise me you’ll be careful.”

He turned around and rested against the car door. With his fangs safely retracted, he felt much more like his usual, calm self. “You know I will.”

Vincent smiled. “I’ll be in the area for a while. I don’t plan to return to Haven until next month. Perhaps I can stop by your home later. We could share a drink and catch up.”

He returned his old friend’s smile and felt more calm flow through him. “I’d like that.” With a nod, Vincent took flight, leaving him alone to slide behind the steering wheel of his Sebring. He sat there for a moment, gripping the wheel tightly with both hands. “If you’re not going to go through with this, now is the time to turn back.” He waited, but the urge to return home didn’t come. No, he had to move forward, see this through to the end. For good or ill, he’d give it his best effort, to Hell with the consequences. He turned the key and gunned the engine, letting the sudden roar express for him his frustration before continuing his journey to her home.